NYAPPYKO

I never thought I'd end like this...

2010-03-13T16:23:35Z

When I was younger *cough*before 2010*cough*, I always thought "I'll get away with not doing much work and I'll be a good slacker". But recently it seems I've become a good student and I'm kinda pround. Lately I've been staying behind doing English for hours on end and finally got all of my language coursework done, all getting predicted A's and B's, staying for exam practice and waking up at 5AM for school. My weekends are being spent working on said coursework. I've done coursework that's taken everyone else a year in a week, I'm really worn down. Actually at the beginning of the month I was very lazy, didn't do any work and hid from the teacher's help, but I've begun to panic lately which is the reason for this much work. I've finished English language now, moving on to English lit. I can't believe that I'm actually doing it; remembering the kid who thought she was cool not doing homework or going to school. I'm trying to convince the English department to allow me to try the Higher exam paper, which isn't going well either. My whole life is revolving around English.The thing I'm unhappiest about, I'm not allowed to go to maths anymore. I keep getting sent to English because I don't have a visible pass grade, having only just completed coursework in this short time. I can see my teacher getting annoyed with seeing me so much, but I guess he's glad that my works being done for once.

Now, I'm worrying about sixth form. I don't have a place anywhere except my current school. Nowhere else will take me because of my circumstances. I'm not even sure that it's worth me applying, the school saves a place for all of it's current students of course, but I just don't know whether or not my grades matter. My head of year, knows I'm putting in a lot of effort, he sees me every day after school hanging around the English corridor always with finished work. Does his opinion matter? Is it unrelated to him? All my regular teachers know how hard I'm trying now. Is it all useless? I hope not, I'm fucked if it is. I don't want to be old and having to back to school. I hope my year heads are in charge of this. Despite hating school previously, this is my last chance, I have no hope of getting anywhere unless I'm accepted here. I'm already late giving in the form, because I previously thought it was futile, but I'm starting to see that I can pass if I put 100% effort in.
I have my maths grade, and equivalent grades of 4 GCSE's but English is all I'm counting on now. If English fails last minute... I have no worthwhile future. I have one more lit essay on Dracula, I'm done until the exams, I want to rewrite language too for higher grades.

I know what I want to study and have many plans of where I could go with it, much more than many others do. I want to do English combined and English Lit if I can, Psycology maybe. In the end I want to speak Japanese, if that fails, I can fall back on something like teaching English if I do English Lit....

It's all pretty depressing. I'm going to break from LJ for a while until my stress levels go down. I'm seriously going crazy, I need a break from the internet for a while. I might be on msn sometimes and I'll check email but that's about it. Until I'm more confident in my future
さようなら
ありがとう
すきだよ。

That long put off autobiography is done.

2010-03-09T17:47:41Z

I have one more English Language piece to write and I'm donee!
I'm a bit happy (*u*)

I have a predicted A :)
Makes me wish I'd actually went to school now... I'd have passed no problem.
One thing bugs me though... "I wasn't expecting something like that from a fifteen year old kid"
Does this mean I write like I'm old?

I hadn't actually finished this until fifth lesson. I wasn't going to do it today, but because I tried to be a ninja and sneak past the teacher when he'd clearly spotted me... I lied and said it was done and I was "editing". I got laughed at for having it end up shorter than I said it'd be.
I'm a bit over ambitious with my english cw.
Now I have under two weeks to do all my English Lit work... Hoh Shet.

Anyway, I'm sick of all this work writing.

I want to write about more fun things from now on.

Sometimes you feel like things are aimed at you...

2010-03-07T21:57:21Z

Like this facebook group that's basically me.
"There's always one kid that hardly ever comes to school."

Every single person in my class joined. I feel like one of the people they were thinking about (^///^;)\

No reason in particular for this actually, but I'm trying to put off writing stupid autobiography...

I only have one lesson tomorrow so I have plenty of time to do it, however, I really should do it now. My teacher skives at lunch and break... I don't want to have to look for him at the last minute.

Proper entry...

2010-03-06T15:21:12Z

I'm back for real this time.
My internet is back for good
~~Stupid gas people broke it when they shouldn't have been touching it.~~
I've read a lot today so I'm wiped out. I read all of the manga I've missed, which is quite a bit, most of my series have long chapters (40pg) and I also read everyone's journal entries... Only there's so many, six pages at least. I want to reply but I can't focus on anything to say...
I think I'll just try and comment more from now to make up for it.

During my "hiatus" I think I started to go loopy, I watched dvd's on repeat, tidied my room for once (I can finally see the floor) and I picked up a habit of talking to myself. It hasn't been fun really. I got the DN relight dvd though, I was a bit disappointed, it was just a cut version of the original series with a few remade scenes. They changed it so that Light met L in a small room with a giant tv. The original was way better.
I want to throw the DVD away but... my collection will be incomplete then...

I made the English situation worse for myself too, I argued over writing the "Guilty Conscience", "The Stranger" and having free choice over my creative writing. I told them that it was because I hate people seeing my writing, which is true. I wandered around in the english corridor for a long time before deciding that I'd actually let my teacher see, but that's because I don't like my writing in general. Not actual handwriting but my writing style. I have writers block which doesn't help either. My teachers seem to think that I have a problem about it being personal however. They kept saying it doesn't have to be personal at all so in the end, I just said "I'd rather write an autobiography than do creative writing."
Now I'm forced to write a very boring two pages about geeky younger me (who isn't going to mention that my reason for learning Japanese is that I wanted to know what cartoons were saying), after reading very angsty manga all day. It has to be done for monday too... My coursework deadline is in two weeks and I still have my english lit. essays to do, he wont let me have them until my language is at A/B level.
Once this is done I'll have all GCSE's needed for life though.
I have 5 atm, which woud mean I can get into sixth form after English is passed.

On the up side though, I've been being a good student and staying to get work done because of having very little other things to do. My friends live too far awayyy!
I think I've done over 48 hours of english over these three weeks.

I have my internet again ^u^

2010-03-06T12:12:55Z

But, I'm not happy atm.
I just read the last three chapters of naruto that I missed.
I don't want anyone to die TnT
But someone probably will

English

2010-03-02T17:31:14Z

As some may know, i'm so veryy far behind in English but I'm finally catching up which is not fun at all.
I did a speaking test the other day, I got an A yay and the coursework is worth a B what I've handed in so far so I guess Ill actually pass despite what I thought.
I managed to earn myself a search party today too haha. I stayed behind to hand in coursework and got made to add to it because it was too short. As is most of my work. I guess my parents are that shocked that I have enough willpower to want to pass. I'm generally a shikamaru type personality lol.

Also sorry for a blank entry the other day. I wrote a long entry but the iPod app didn't want me to post apparently. My Internet is back soon so I'll make proper entries.
Ttfn

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やった

2010-02-28T19:41:14Z

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Love it when unexpected people add me

2010-02-24T19:51:08Z

One of my old friends added me on facebook today. I haven't spoke to her for a while so don't know what to say, but it's nice to know I'm remembered cause people who I only say and not write my name to usually never find me because I have an awkward spelling so to avoid people saying daniel not Danielle. Anyway I should be back for good soon, but for now I have approximitely 20 minutes battery left. Ja ne~

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Happy pancake day

2010-02-16T18:03:56Z

I said I'd be gone... Only yesterday did i say that.
But I'm with my dad so I have Internet for maybe another hour. Only ninjanet though so I can't do much anyway.

I don't like pancakes that much... But it's pancake day so I have to eat them lol, I hope everyone else has a good day though!

Laters

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Real short entry

2010-02-15T08:55:22Z

I won't be online for a few weeks probably because there's something wrong with the gas pipes in my house and they've been leaking toxic fumes. Obviously everything has been switched off, my house now has no form of heating or hot water so the electricity is also off... I have no internet. I'm not staying anywhere with internet either.
Well at the moment someone has internet, but it's unlikely I'll write again. I guess it's fate because I have that super gay English ccoursework to do
Bye

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also, happy valentines day everyone.

Prom funniness and Happy Carnival eve?

2010-02-11T19:06:21Z

Well I have no idea wtf "carnival day" is but apparently it's tomorrow and also important enough to celebrate?
In my school at least the girls have to wear brightly coloured socks and the boys have to wear bright ties.
Thus I'm sitting writing this in very "sexy" knee-high black and white stripey socks haha. It's really ugly with my uniform... Basically imagine a blue kilt, that's what my skirt is. Yes it's over knee-length too.

Tomorrow I'm debating between one pink sock one blue sock, one blue sock one lime sock or one pink sock one green sock.
Hmm...
Maybe just layer them all ? haha I'm looking stupid anyway why not?

Most people just aren't turning up. I am 'cause I want my attendance to be good enough for prom.

Ahaha speaking of prom... My school has had the fantastic idea of replacing it with a "Costume Ball".
It's been so funny today watching the reactions of having already bought/paid for/chosen their dress and then being told it's fancy dress instead. I kinda want to go to prom so much more now though...
I think the way it's going though this idea is going to go because my year has decided to go on strike over it and say that we'll either just wear dresses and ignore them, change the theme to "pimps and hoes", persuade them to change it to a masquerade theme (I love that idea so much) or we're gonna hire a hall and have our own no-adults prom, which would also be awesome. If we organise it ourselves though, I feel sorry for the people who most hate, they won't be invited and will probably end up going to the school prom anyway :/

Apart from this drama over clothes... I now know what I'm doing for my english coursework.
Creative writing oh noes. I suck at creative writing. Basically what I have to write is four stories about somebody who has ended up having to make a choice between right and wrong... Because I'm in a high expectations class, it has to be in good detail too.

----BLABBER ABOUT RESULTS---

I'm also veryy happy about my grades. I have a guaranteed C in maths, that can and will be improved when I have the results for this years exam and I got a B in my English exam last year (Well I have no coursework and missed a few so overall E but when I do those it'll even out). For someone who had zero schooling before taking the exams it's pretty impressive.

My reading and spelling is very good too apparently. I have an "impressive vocabulary".
I got told this when being forced to be tested to see if I needed extra time on my exams. I might get it 'cause I write slowly. But for reading and spelling, I am apparently the first to have been capable of finishing this, even out of six-formers.
I am ashamed of my schools sixth form.

While I've been off, I also got moved back to the top maths class again... It's good cause it proves I'm smart enough but... I'm gonna be lonely, I miss my set two friends.. I'll get over it.

Narutooo!

2010-02-10T20:23:12Z

First of all...
YAY Naruto is back!

I feel slightly bad for Karin knowing now that she'd known Sasuke for a while and that she'd been waiting for him to be nice again. Still, I support SasuSaku too much to feel like she deserved to be happy with him. I think that maybe after all he's put her through maybe it's kinder that she stop believing in him now.

Well done to Sakura and Naruto for ditching Sai and Kakashi at least temporarily too. I'm really happy that team seven is being re-united maybe? Well they are meeting again, which is really what I meant to say.

I was really shocked at Sakura saying she'd leave Konoha for him. It's the kind of outcome I've been waiting for, for a long time. I can't help but feel that theres an ulterior motive somewhere there though.

I really don't wanna wait for the next chapter.
At the next (if there is one) arc change over I'm gonna try and stop reading for a few weeks so that I can read more when I pick it back up.

What I'm really curious about is Naruto's plan... It was really sneaky and well... ninja-like the way he left sensei.

I know I'm totally missing Madara and his freaky eye obsession thus far... I'm just not interested.. I don't like akatsuki so much now my favourites are gone.
Itachi-san and Dei-san
RIP
Well Dei will definitely rest in pieces.

Mememe

2010-02-09T23:54:35Z

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
B. Tag seven people to do the same.
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."

Tagged by the evil genius omaewa nyeh~

1. When I'm nervous, I clean. I'm extremely messy normally though. I think maybe I have temporary OCD or something?

2. I'm obsessesed with all things Japanese. Oh really? Yes really... I think my inner wee-a-boo shines through in this journal a lot.

3. I take forever getting dressed. Every morning when I don't have school, there is guaranteed to be a mountain of clothes on my bed that I decide I no longer want to wear... That's after ironing them too.

4. I'm a pack-rat. I collect things obsessively, I keep almost everything that is slightly pretty. I keep pretty perfume boxes, I've kept every drawing I've ever done, I keep ribbons off presents, I collect pretty bits of fabric and pretty pebbles. If I do throw things away I always think long and hard about it... I'm a little bit too attached to my possesions?

5. I'm really vain and looks obsessed when alone, but I lose all confidence around people. I have good friends who I love to bits and I'm not generally hated by anyone, but if there are people around, I constantly worry about looks. "What if I'll never be as pretty as her?" "How come I don't have as many friends?" "Does my smile look wierd? "I'm gonna keep a posed face just incase." "How come she has a boyfriend and I don't? I try harder than her right?" "I put in a lot of effort I must look prettier right?" "My posture looks bad right... I bet I'm slouching..."
Yes. It's called paranoia, I know. When writing this I realised I am Ese Urunai...
www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/16843/antic-cafe/ese-urnai.html

6. I'm a very lucky girl. When I was young, I was always loved by everyone I met, because my personality was a lot more loud and confident, but especially kind to almost everyone. I knew how to wrap everyone around my little finger, I was also a naturally pretty child so I had a lot of boyfriends. I was basically never lonely. I screwed that one up.
I was also incredibly talented, I was good at sports, maths, english, science, art, languages and pretty much anything I attempted. I'm still naturally good at those things, but I lost my motivation and got worse at everything. I guess I'm like a cross between Kanon and Miku's outlooks on school life.
Miku: "I was always a good straight A student, not that I'm bragging or anything but I was always one of the top two. Up until my last year anyway, then I got dumb"
Kanon: "My teacher's report always said 'He's a bright kid, who can do whatever he bothers himself to do'"

I think both of those describe me perfectly.
I know my school rank and it was at least top ten of the year last time I heard.

7. I'm attracted by shiny and modern things. I love design, especially the types that involve glitter or smooth lines. Thats for furniture by the way, it used to be one of my dreams to be an interior designer... I just don't have it in me to suit people who have different taste to my own, when designing, I'm bad at thinking from others ideals. Anyway. I'm like a toddler mentally.
I LIKE SHINY

I tag... Anyone smart enough to read this :)

可愛弟ちゃん

2010-02-08T16:33:55Z

Just sitting watching tv with my brother when an advert about saving pandas came on... He started shouting, "THE PANDAS ARE DYIN" and got upset. Awww I know why I still like him :')

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今日のビデオ

2010-02-08T14:27:37Z

Kuroshitsuji!
Squee!

I love this show. Well this is it's musical version but it still looks good.

It's quite yaoi-ish so not advisible unless you don't mind it.

Miku has good taste.

Sleepp

2010-02-07T14:08:27Z

I need it bad. But I can't because I have school. I can't miss it for a while because I'm on the verge on missing prom.

I'm .5 below being able to go. Well I still don't know if I want to but I don't wanna be told that I can't.Even though I'm tired, it was worth it.
People listened to my music <3
They liked it so I'm happy. It was funny when they found out that I had English music too.

I made everyone listen to 3OH!3's other songs too, they made me listen to the Katy Perry version.
I liked the originals.

There are also many, many photos. I happy that I kept my promise and didn't make people delete the ones I don't like :p
Because we all looked pretty stupid anyway with badly back-combed hair, nerd glasses, drawn on unibrows, pimples, spot and very heavy make-up

And as always happens at sleepovers, I have a lot of things planned which aren't likely to go as desired or even happen.
So far it's a Paramore concert, a road trip when someone gets their license, prom and valentines day dates.
The description they gave me of the person I will suposedly be going with was "coco pops and bread". Nice how my friends know me isn't it?

Nyahaha~

I don't think I'm gonna do valentines day, 'cause even last year when I did have a boyfriend, I spent it alone.
That was because I was sick but... I just don't like it.

I have two songs today, by heidi. They're still Japanese but the name doesn't sound it.
I love their music so much but I don't know much about the actual band.
But Kiri is hot <3

Bed breaking ninja.

2010-02-06T18:14:58Z

I broke my bed.
The wooden bit on the side snapped because I always sit on it for the computer and it's been gradually bending.

But shhh.
I'm going to temporarily fix it and it'll break again when my mum goes on the comp
muahahaha.

I have no videos for today or yesterday.
I'm staying at a friends tonight so yay, I'm gonna be quiet.

I now, love short hair.

2010-02-06T11:50:29Z

After many years of arguing with my mum about keeping it long XD

I feel like a little girl, 'cause I bought hundreds of bows, hairbands and clips that ended up not suiting me with brown hair.
Right now, I guess I feel like a very badly mismatched decora.

I got different shampoo for once too. Kiddy shampoo yay!
It smells like mango :)
I love childrens shampoo.

My hair curls properly now too :D
I always loved curling my friends hair because most of them have really gorgeous long hair (that didn't get killed by product as much as mine). I need to buy new curlers though, I threw my last ones away because I couldn't get my hair to stay lol.

I should have gotten short hair a while ago. It's awesome, it doesn't take long to straighten and it's very fluffy nyaa~
I look vainer than usual cause I haven't left my hair alone since it got cut.

I look younger than usual too. I already looked 13 now I probably look 10.
I'll appreciate when I'm older.

But I now know just how badly damaged my hair used to be...
I miss my badly damaged long hair also though.

I keep going to grab it and it's not there :'(
I feel sad.
But I can get extensions I guess?

I don't know. I liked both.

Next time though, it's gonna be lighter. I want to have a go at doing maya hair 'cause it looks a bit similar to the ghost heart PV apart from the colour.

This doesn't really make sense.

Shopping adventures.

2010-02-05T16:54:18Z

M... M... My... Hair...
My long hair...
It's gone :(

I thought I'd be brave whilst getting it cut.
"Yeah yeah, just do what you think will suit me."

Now I have hair just only slightly longer than bob length.
He was cutting off chunks of hair about 6 inches long and I could see it falling to the ground.

I cried.

My hair is also dirty blonde now.

I feel wierdddddddddddddd!

But, I'm not complaining I like it. It's gonna take some getting used to though, as my hair hasn't been short since I was a toddler.

I also got new body bars :)
I have been waiting for my piercing to heal since june. It shouldn't take that long but I accidentally let it close the first time.

I got a hat and many socks too.

Why is it that when I have money there's nothing I want really?
I bought too many socks today.

Today its...

2010-02-05T05:57:57Z

Shopping and hair cut time.

I'm very happy!

Good to know that if I start with my many daily posts, its going to be a while right?
Because it's only 6am now.
Yes, I wake up early when I want to.

Hyde's Heaven

2010-02-04T21:47:25Z

Did you know...
That this is an old song and I have no reason for that.

Well I only just heard it the other day. I like it.

I like L'Arc a lot now :)

This is my daily video.
Even though I'm already posting too much.

Well I have to tidy my room now, it's messy.
and I've been promised shopping if I do.
But not Liverpool :/

Suspicious white substance

2010-02-04T21:09:47Z

Just now, I walked downstairs to my mother with a white substance all over my hands and bum.
I just got laughed at.
It wasn't what it sounds like, although explaining that would be slightly easier.

I sat on my bed writing for ten minutes and I though my bum was getting cold...
I'd been sitting on hair mousse. I didn't even realise, but when I got up theres also this suspicious looking white puddle on my sheets haha.
At least it's foamy so it doesn't look too bad.

What looks funny about it is that theres a book about Thomas the Tank Engine next to the mousse-y puddle.
Train porn?

For some reason I don't feel like moving it, I've been watching it dry instead lol.

Naruto 481

2010-02-04T10:50:19Z

I can't believe Danzou actually died like that, for someone who most people wanted gone but were unable to get rid of. It looks real pathetic.
The part about him and Sarutobi competing for the Hokage title was pretty... I don't know... Nostalgic?
I was able to feel sympathy for him in the end. It always happens when I know the "bad guy's" story.
If you've ever seen the film "Dorian Gray", I cried at the end of that. I you haven't seen it, I'll just say I looked pretty strange crying my eyes out in the cinema when everyone else was terrorfied by the end.

But SASUKE. I feel so much hate for him right now. I desperately hope he see's that this isn't the way to get revenge.
I want him to stay away from Konoha unless he's going to revive his clan the right way.
~~By making little Uchiha babies with Sakura, one of the few people still believing in him~~
Itachi wouldn't have liked it, because he's the one Sasuke's doing all this for, he should take notice of whether his "gift" will be wanted. I mean Itachi chose to give his life so that Sasuke could live in peace, he's basically stomping on his grave by living how he is now.

But still... I want to know what Sakura planned to do to Sasuke when it was just her on her own. It's not like she could do much.

Also, WHERE THE FUCK IS NARUTO? He's not been in the manga for a while...
It's his manga and he just decides to lay on the floor for a few weeks doing nothing. Or is it months now?

On a note other than Naruto, I finally got round to watching brotherhood. From scratch because I forgot where I was up to.
I'm now on episode seven. Pathetic. But I won't be waiting for episodes for a while haha.

One way only zone.

2010-02-03T21:28:48Z

Song number two. It's SID.

They are awesome no explanation needed.

Hold on, it's not the next day, stop the spam.
It is the next day in Tokyo. Since that's where my music lives, it's ok.

I feel bad that I still don't know all the names after liking them for as long as I have.
(Since Kuroshitsuji's monochrome kiss. I remembered I need to write about this anime too.
*it's my mission to write an entry for every single thing I like*)
I only knew Mao, Aki and Yuuya. Shinji, I forgot you, I'm sorry.

Mao, is honestly gorgeous.

Actual Life-y entry about life

2010-02-03T17:20:34Z

I'm waking up way too early for my liking and getting tired at actual normal times.
It's not good for a child like me who's bedtime has been whenever I wanted since I was five.

Since my bedtime disappeared, I went to bed around twelve at least. Sometimes at five or six, only because I knew I'd get shouted at if my mum found out I was still awake haha.

But now...
WTFS WRONG WITH ME!

I'm going to bed at ten, maybe eleven and waking up at eight or nine, by myself.
Nobody is going to convince me that its normal behaviour from a teenager.

I blame my stupid responsiblities from last week. I should have just rolled out of bed like normal, uncaring about whether I was late or not. I really can be grown up when I need to be :/ I got up at four just to make sure I had time for everything and then spare time.
It's fucked up my nocturnal sleeping pattern.

I don't like it.
Especially now that everyone else decided to stay up late as I used to now.

I bought "What is 'Plastic Tree'" and "GR8 Story" from iTunes as well. Bringing my amount of paid for music up.
I still don't own any CD's because mum won't let me use the card that is in my name to order them.
She only just tolerated me buying the NGAW DVD.
Only other music I've bought atm is "Ghost+Heart" by LM.C.
I got a sorta online book thing so it's okay. Even if I'd prefer the CD.

I plan to read more manga today, I dunno what to read though. I've read all the ones on my list.
I want to read non-cheesy shoujo at the moment.
That probably isn't happening.

I'll go back to doing what I've done all day.
Watching the Simpsons :')

Nyehh, this is so long for me. To make it seem longer, it may have another video or maybe a pic.
Maybe both?

It's Saran.
From Aicle.
I think he's pretty cool.

LM.C too :)

Now I can almost say this post is full of my loves.
Okay Taa's here :)

And the two boys I love the most, of course.
Miku to Non-chan.
愛してるよ。

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